Tuesday, September 30, 2008

To a man entitled father

for which sake U are entitle so:

Its a bless
Its an honour
Its a gift from the King of all kings
It never ceased to be a burden unless u see it that way
a father is a man
and a man he is until he let down & go of his responsbilities
for which his sons and daughters
will learn from his back and his footsteps
or some as me
learn from the void that he leaves
makes us a better human
for me
a better MAN



in this holy eid

I can't forgave U
I never will
nor I will hate U
because where are u to be forgive?
or to be hated?

I learned from the spacious void U left
and though U left this family for good
it is no longer your concern
this family is mine
and mine it is
I'm not yet a father, yes;
but I'm a MAN.


for which u wife suffers, for your doings (and "hers", and your kins);
Believe me, in every power I have
my mother will never shed a single tear


for which my sister remembered u, vaguely and sadly (and have you ever remember this family?);
under me, she will look only for the future



This family lacks a member
But we are complete


Heavensake I knew U are happy with "her" and your kins
but on what foundation are those moments built?

this man, truly, didn't followed your mould,
this man, truly, is the grandson of d late HJ JAAMAN HJ DERANI
from every inch to every inch


Eid mubarrak
a reflecting one this year around




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remember when I say empathy makes a whole lots different than sympathy?then remember the orphans, the parents that loses their children, the misfortunes for where ever they are.


This post is not for gaining sympathy.nor empathy. it's just for the sake of reflecting oneself.

cheers. eid mubarrak friends. brothers. sisters. and in our rejoice remember there are those who are still fighting and struggling.

salam

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

dan aku membuku

Hari ini luka aku terbuka lagi.

Bukan luka hati, tetapi luka kaki.

Kerana semalam doktor memesankan; "cuci luka sehingga lembut". maka kerana aku arkitek, bukannya doktor, aku halakan sahaja air dari paip getah ke kaki aku. membuak - buak darah aku bila lukanya terpecah.

Minta teman sebilik hantarkan (dah lupa namanya, walhal baru pagi tadi menampal nama di depan pintu bilik hehe~ maaf roommate) ke pusat kesihatan, baru tahu cuci maksudnya rendam sahaja, lepas tu baru dituangkan ungu iodin. Maka sekali lagi aku ditahan hospital, tak kisah sebab yang jaga aku bukan jantan, manis pulak tu =)

tidur sehingga lewat ke kelas CAD. nasib baik sempat mempamerkan storyboard yang aku buat dalam 30 minit awal pagi tadi.

Dan kaki aku bukannya berjangkit, sahabat, cuma aku alah sahaja. datang lah bertanyakan kondisi aku, dari mendengar cerita kaki aku bernanah kerana aku tak basuh stoking, kepam kasut aku, walhal kan pelik kalau "croc" aku terserlah kakiku tersarung?

Mulut manusia bagai buluh ditiup angin, lain arusnya, lain alunnya, makin jauh makin bermacam siulnya.

Oh. dan benar aku sedang dilamun cinta. benar aku dalam perhubungan.

Tidak benar aku dan "dia" sedang bergaduh. bertitik titik untuk putus hubungan jauh sekali.

Cuma kami selesa kalau tak berkepit, tak perlu nak berkampung dalam kangkang 7 kaki x 7 kaki siang dan malam. jumpa bila kadar perlu, menjenguk bila rindu. kalau sudah jodoh tak ke mana, betul?

jadi simpankanlah cerita - cerita masam, kongsikan yang manis - manis.

Tahniah Kak Liza dan Azmin dari Prodigy, mendapat anggota keluarga yang baru. sedap dan manis nama Kasih Nasuha, sepadan dengan tuannya, semimik dengan bonda dan ayahandanya =) walaupun dah lama, saje je nk tulis dlm blog hehehe




Yahya bin Aktsam berkata: "Tukang fitnah itu lebih jahat dari tukang sihir sebab tukang fitnah dapat berbuat dalam sesaat apa yang tidak dilakukan oleh tukang sihir dalam satu bulan dan perbuatan tukang fitnah lebih bahaya dari perbuatan syaitan laknatullah sebab syaitan laknatullah hanya berbisik dan khayal bayangan tetapi tukang fitnah langsung berhadapan dan berbuat.

Dan Allah swt telah berfirman (berbunyi): "Hammalatal hathab. Ahli-ahli tafsir banyak yang mengertikan hathab itu fitnah/adu domba. Sebab fitnah itu bagaikan kayu untuk menyalakan api permusuhan dan peperangan."

Friday, September 5, 2008

tak kena ~ ahmad fetri



a song by my buddy ahmad fetri for multimedia nite.quite a talent ain't he?